"'Grab the f--king soap,'" he told her, per her recollection, but she couldn't. "He grabbed my hair," she continued, "and pulled me up because I kept trying to sit back down...I don't remember soaping myself." She mainly remembered being slumped on the floor of the shower, then the water turning off, after which, she said, "I guess I went unconscious or something, I don't remember." 

Jen said she's not sure how she made it out of the bathroom, but then Masterson "kind of picked me up and pushed me onto the bed." Once again, she continued, "I was asleep or passed out or unconscious." She admitted that her memory of the sequence of events was hazy.

But, she continued, "To the best of my knowledge, when I first woke up on that bed he was on top of me and his penis was inside of me, and that's when I came to. Immediately my first realization was that, that's what I awoke to." 

She tried to put a pillow between them, she recalled, but he grabbed it and held it over her face, causing her to lose consciousness again. When she came to, she said, she grabbed at his throat. Then he put his hand around her throat, Jen said, and "squeezed really hard." Mueller asked what she thought at that moment. "That I was going to die," she replied. "He's going to kill me."